Wednesday, October 06, 2004

 

Hagridden

Eve ate the fruit of the tree of knowledge of good and evil. Adam did too. Creation fell and everything that has happened since has carried the shadow of this action.

Why is knowing good and evil a problem? I've wondered about this for a long time. We have to know the difference in order to guide our lives.

Or do we? Could it be that by trying to figure out and keep track of the difference we wear ourselves into an early grave? Maybe we tie ourselves into knots by working at this subtle guidance. It's easy to argue and get confused.

What's certain is that I'm no good at it. Well, sort of. I can see the boulders, but the sand and dust get by, and life becomes very gritty.

So, what can I do? Turn the whole mess over to God. Let Him use His discernment. Maybe this is the way Eve and Adam lived in the garden: if they approached wrong, the Holy Spirit would give them a twitch.

He has certainly given me twitches. The problem is that most of the time life goes on and there's no discernible twitch of guidance. This might mean that I'm completely insensitive, and that's my guess. But the other day I got a radical idea: maybe the lack of a twinge of wrongness means I'm doing OK. No judgment. Not arrived, but on the path.

Can I really trust God to do this? Is it not something that is really up to me? I truly don't know. I don't know where the limit is in what God will do in my life. I know that getting up in the morning and getting to work is my responsibility, but what else? There's a large grey area.

The only way I know of to find out is the scientific method: try it and see what blows up. If I get conviction on not doing something, then that pretty well means it's my responsibility. I think.

Could it be there is a far wider range of freedom for a follower of Jesus than we're usually led to believe? If this is true, if God really will help me stay away from evil, life would be a lot better. There are so many things I don't know. I'm very, very glad that God is a good and patient teacher.

Comments:
I don't know why, but your discussion reminds me of a friend of mine that is in the process of remodeling his home. He has hired a General Contractor, but he (friend)wants to be involved in many of the mundane decisions and details. How many size-4 rebar need to be in this footing, what size circuit breaker is required for this room...etc. He was getting to the point of stressing himself out when I mentioned that he hired his Contractor for a reason... to worry about those details. His job was to provide the money for the project to be completed. I would help him keep an eye on the Contractor, but there was some point where he would have to let go and enjoy the ride. For many of us "Trust" is a very difficult step to take. Bad experiences make it even harder. The good thing about God is that it doesn't take much to realize that He keeps His promises. There is no need for a "Better Business Bureau" with God. To coin a phrase, "You can't worry about sorting beans while you're enjoying them in a tasty stew". Kinda lame, but it just popped into my head.
 
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